Day 1 freaking 00

Maybe there is something to be said for this rest thing after all. For the first time in ages, felt the familiar desire to do something, make something, create, learn, play. Ofcourse have felt versions of this before, and jumped right into the deep end, with schedules and calendar blocks and excel sheets. But today was just a little toe dipping exploration. Focused on being present, doing first, planning as we go along. Walked the dogs, nice and long. Showered. Then practised piano for a solid couple hours. Learnt my first full song! Serenaded boy with a glitchy attempt at Cant Help Falling In Love later. Got the laptop out, got some tea brewed, gathered my cookie and spent some time in the solarium, asking for chatgpts help to explore ways to awaken something different. Got some great ideas. Always with the great ideas, and then lose steam as it so perceptively noted. Maybe this time will be different. And if not, we begin again anyway. The goal is to be enthusiastic enough to go for it, and curb the enthusiasm enough to be able to stick with it.

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