Day 51

And just like that - we've made it to cheat day #2.

Long but productive friday. Did the 5 mins loyalty do nothing as suggested by Brad first thing. It felt so simultaneously good and bad that automatically stretched to 10. Then waters, nice long cold walk, bursting pee, lovely stretchy ywa, half a grapefruit, chila brekkie split 2 ways, vacuum and hp, Eminem and shower, morning skincare and lunch. Some piano post lunch, then R100, then finances and jonny cash, then at long last - chill.

Im reaching the hard parts now. Of everything. Spring / summer / daytime walks. Longer and harder workouts. More complex financials. Long pending house projects. And both handed complicated piano. Not to mention the hardest of them all, inching closer and closer to decision on leave and work and career. Getting anxious just thinking about it, and depressed because I dont feel stronger or better or ready yet. Sigh.

Anyway. Not for today. I'll think about that tomorrow. At Tara. Boo.

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