Day 48

Light and easy day, made so intentionally.
Woke up with a struggle again, out of bed only by 9.30. 
Then all the things including walk (Crae mercifully cut it short and pooped in tipperary), then a nice long stretchy ywa session. Adrienne said a couple of deeply wise things, about being responsible for our own happiness, and both in yoga and in life learning how to fall out of poses and get back into it, as well owning it when we are nowhere close to perfect. All in all a happy start to the day. Brekkie etc, and I decided to skip shower and chore today, considering my hyperproductivity from yesterday. Instead spent a long time soaking up some sunshine in the solarium, texting, reading and staring off into space, being loyal to my current self. The evening with Gabor Mate was a pile of baloney, and Ash shared all kinds of disturbing goss that spurred me straight to the gratitude and relief phase of this leave. Ending the day with a real sense of validation of this decision, which has been a long time coming. 

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