Day 36

Im getting quite tired of these. Very boring. Plus periods. But here goes.

4 memories filled with love this week
- hooky days
- lol nights with wilty 
- when cray crae turns to check during a walk
- toilet paper without reminder!!

3 things Belonging feels like
- doggies snuggles 
- garlic breath kisses 
- shamelessness

5 ways I show up for people
- house sit when you're gone
- ask if I can help 
- say nice things 
- check in 
- be reliable 
- call mom 

3 people i miss
- Sam etc.
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4 things love looks like right now
- oh cmon 

3 things I admire in others
- boy and the art of zero fs given 
- ams kindness 
- ans inner strength 

Ugh. Didn't think anything could ever match therapist from hell 2022, but boy did i get proven wrong today. Enter acu from hell. Ive now been scolded by a white boomer man, and a Chinese tiger mom. Grand fun. Going back to Frederick for some salve. 

Good part is walk and R100 etc. Then dosas. The batter makes all the difference. Doggos were adorbs, crae melted every bit of me, boy brought home toilet paper and mcds and the evening was like everything is fine. 

Maybe soon everything will be fine. 




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